In order to heal any trauma you need to be ready to be heal everything.

It took me a very long time to get to the point where I could take the step to begin to heal. It really is true what they say, you can't help someone who isn't ready to be helped, it took me a very long time to be ready. It took absolute mental and physical exhaustion for me to realise that I couldn't live like I was anymore. That I couldn't hide from the trauma I had buried in the dark recesses of my mind anymore. It took giving up to start me on the path of healing.